An Open Letter

To Anxiety,

Shall we begin with where you began?
No, first I’d like to ask you about
your master plan:

Did you hope that I would fall?
before I opened my eyes to it all?

Did you want to make me scream?
enough to make me miss out on my dream?

Did you intend for me to cry?
long into the night while life
passed me by?

Or did you in fact, want me to react
so that I might find hope
along with ways to cope?

You helped me to climb
and make the most of my time.

You helped me to realise
the importance of advice.

You taught me that tears are fine,
although born of sadness, they are mine.

You allowed me to think with a clearer mind
and discover the happiness you never
thought I’d find.

In the beginning all I felt for you was hate,
but gradually I became patient and able to wait
for that moment when the bad becomes good…

…the moment at which hate becomes love.

☀ ☀ ☀ ☀ ☀

Submitted to Memee’s Poetry Parties by Jade K. Moore 11-21-2015.
Original Poem: An Open Letter © Jade Moore 2015. All rights reserved.
An Open Letter post © Memee’s Musings, 2015-2017. All rights reserved.

Love ‘n Hate

Money art "Love and Hate" by Dan Tague
Money art “Love and Hate” by Dan Tague

Love ‘n hate
love ‘n hate
two emotions
from the same plate.

You nourish me
then take from me.
All I do
is contemplate.

The future with,
the future without,
I cannot resolve
this debate.

I’m tied in knots.
I walk on shells.
Love ‘n hate.
Love ‘n hate.
Why must I wait
to learn my fate?

This month’s challenge at Memee’s Poetry Parties is Love’n Hate. I cannot win and I do not vote. I do always participate. It’s a good exercise for me. Besides I love all of the amazing work that comes from each of you.

Memee’s Poetry Parties is open to poets of all ages and languages. Each entrant is allowed one poem per month.  I encourage you to challenge your fellow bloggers and send your followers to read and vote for their favorite. The voting window opens on Thanksgiving Day and closes on the 30th so put the link to the punchbowl out on all your media platforms during that time.

Good luck!

Love’n Hate Poetry Challenge

emotional wrestling

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If you read my entry in last month’s success-themed poetry challenge, Sometimes I Feel, then you probably already have an inkling that I have been in a love-hate relationship with my blog for the past 4 to 5 months.

When I first began my blog I was writing for me. I was living in turmoil and pain and had to excise it so that I could continue to go on breathing. I wrote about my pain and then I joined the Blogging U courses and wrote stuff for that as well. And I received a lot of feedback. I fell in love with that feedback and learned to hunger for it. I felt like I was no longer alone, that people cared about me and I began to heal. However after my courses ended and the angst receded, away went the sense of community I had fallen in love with and begun writing for. Continue reading