Agonizing Turmoil

Agonizing Turmoil | Memee's Musings
Gorgeous painting, Turmoil, by Michael Lang

Memee’s Poetry Party was once again a success. I always enjoy reading the poems that you create and post based on the theme I offer. For March we wrote about New Beginnings. I choose it becuase of the circumstances surrounding my friends’ life, but now it is my turn.

I have decided that I can no longer live as persona non grata (actually things have grown much worse since that article). I’ve spent much time looking for work that would afford me the ability to rent my own place but it just doesn’t seem meant to be. And so today I face the agony of leaving the man I have been falling in love with, walking away from the sunshine that has vastly improved my ability to maintain an emotional balance, and dread tomorrow, when I will tell my hosts that I intend to leave ASAP, goal: this upcoming weekend. I fear the turmoil and open hostility that could create, but I cannot live my life on these eggshells. I need stability and kindness not fear and anxiety.

My goals remain the same, I do intend to return to CA, but I will be better prepared the next time I come here.

Washington, be ready, I’m coming home… at least for now.

Moving Forward

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If you wanna play #wcw with me, here’s your badge!

In the past 12 months there have been so many endings in my life now it is time for me to forge new beginnings. And so I am moving forward, southward actually, to sunny California. I have no commitment to staying forever. It is just something I am “trying on” to see if it still fits (I was born and raised in northern California).

I have an incredible network of friends in Washington state, so strong that calling them friends does not indicate how meaningful these relationships are. They support me in my move and I know that whether I stay in California or return to Washington, they will always be my circle of support.

Moving Forward |Memee's Musings

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