Oh how I love you
and wish you were near
when we are together
conquering the world
is always near!
Oh how I hate you
and wish I could flee
the words you are always
screaming at me:
Worthless! Hopeless! Unloveable!
Inadequate! Boring! Weak! Undeserving!
You can be so relentless, so cruel and mean,
heartless to Me who carries Your pain!
How this world of mine collides
My hero, My nemesis
from one day to the next,
who will be with me — I am so tired of this!
I walk the rope you lie before me
fearing in each and every step
the next one might be the one
where I slip.
Why can’t we come
to some understanding?
Release this ever-present tension
between us, reach a balance
not too high and not too low,
and finally live a life in harmony?
© MemeesMusings/B.L. Memee, 2015. All rights reserved.
I originally published the above poem on Letters to the Mind blog project. Please consider writing to the mental illness that impacts the world you walk in and sharing it with our new community blog. We are hoping other creatives who suffer from a mental illness or have a family member/loved one with a mental illness will write to the illness and post it on the site for two purposes.
The first is as a way to grow and challenge how we relate to our illness and the second is to educate other people about the various mental illnesses that people live with every single day. With education comes understanding and with understanding stigma begins to fall ill and eventually dies.
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Memee (and Jade)